I'M WORTH THE WAIT & SO ARE YOU!

I AM WORTH THE WAIT & SO ARE YOU! What about Starting over? SAVED, SINGLE & CELIBATE AFTER DIVORCE! ABSTINENCE IS NOT JUST FOR TEENS YA KNOW! 

Take me for instance: I had a license to drive (marriage certificate), but then my license got revoked (husband left then divorced me). My car still wants to 'drive'! But, I can't lawfully drive without license, registration & insurance! If not, I may have to pay dearly in fines, have an accident & be hurt or killed, plus, I NEED GAS!!! 'GAS' will cost ya big! DRIVING IS EXPENSIVE! IT'S BETTER TO GET YOUR LICENSE, REGISTRATION, INSURANCE & YOUR OWN SET OF KEYS TO DRIVE YOUR OWN CAR! Hope you are able to follow my analogy! 


Maybe you’ve already given your virginity away and it’s impossible for you to be a virgin on your wedding night. Don’t trip… there’s hope for you, too. Just because you’ve done it before doesn’t mean you have to keep on doing it! Divorce that soul & emotional tie!
Starting over is the best choice for your life now. Starting over means that you've decided to stop having sex. That doesn’t mean forever; you’ll get your chance. But wait until it’s right, until it’s safe, until your MARRIED.

Think about it:
Wouldn’t it be wonderful not to have to worry about pregnancy, disease, or heartbreak from being used? Spiritual soul ties & being cursed? And think about all the fun you can have when you’re not worried. You’re free to see people without all the confusion that sex adds to a relationship. Holiness is attractive! Your anointing makes you special! Your self-respect and confidence will be attractive to the kind of person you really want to be with … not just someone who wants your “parts.”

Think about it: Starting over. The healthiest lifestyle you can choose. YES, THE CHOICE IS YOURS!!!
 
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Remember:

• YOU ARE… smart and capable of making great choices. Don’t believe anyone who says you can’t exercise self-control over your own body. YOU CAN CONTROL YOURSELF!
• YOU ARE… special and valuable for lots of reasons. Don’t fall for the line that says you’re only worth something if you have sex. Grown folk pull this just as much as youth!
• YOU ARE… worthy of respect. Don’t give in to the idea that just because you’ve done it before, you have to keep doing it. YOU DON'T!
• YOU ARE… Worth the Wait! IT'S GREAT TO WAIT! TRUE LOVE MAKES YOU WANT TO WAIT!

Note: Some people may try to convince you that “Everyone’s doing it.” Don’t fall for that line of crap. Plenty of teens are saying “YES!” to abstinence & SO ARE ADULTS! “Yes!” to a life free from worry. “Yes!” to healthier relationships. “Yes!” to a brighter future. SAY "YES" TO GOD!!!

Step on and take the abstinence challenge!
Whether you are still a virgin or not. Nobody ever died from not having sex, so you have nothing to lose!

Figure out why. Maybe you don’t want to deal with a pregnancy. Maybe you don’t want a disease. Or maybe you don’t want to set yourself up for emotional hurt. Maybe you just want God to be pleased even with your sexuality! Write it down! Keep a journal, it helps!

Don’t fall for the lines. Only losers use ’em, and they are NOT thinking about YOUR needs.

Tell your partner. If you’ve been sexually active, tell your partner that you’ve changed your mind, and want to wait. If your boy/girlfriend won’t agree, kick ’em to the curb! You don’t need to be held hostage to someone else’s selfishness. If you’re currently abstinent, make sure all your dates know ahead of time that you’re committed to waiting.

Find somebody to watch your back. You don’t have to tell everyone you know, but find at least one other person who will support your decision to wait. I use social media sites to hold me accountable!

Avoid risky situations. Know yourself and what might cause you problems. BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF! Know your triggers! Avoid the situation and you’ll avoid blowing it.

Keep your body clean. Avoid alcohol and drugs. Any decision you make now is out the window when you're loaded.

Keep your mind clean. Ditch the pornography. Call your internet provider & tell them to block it, that way even when you're tempted, you won't be able to indulge! Porn keeps you way too hyped on sex, and it’s demeaning to us all.

Make a plan! While you’re still dressed and thinking clearly, figure out how to get through each situation without having sex. Give yourself permission to have fun without sexual involvement. IT CAN BE DONE!!!

I RESPECT ME ENOUGH TO WAIT, WHICH COMMANDS RESPECT FROM OTHERS! IT'S MY CHOICE & I CHOOSE TO BEGIN AGAIN & ALLOW GOD TO TEACH ME HOW TO STAY KEPT BY HIM! :-) IT'S A PROCESS...MY JOURNEY SHALL BE SUCCESSFUL!!! I PRAY THE SAME FOR YOU!!! :-)

Scripture References:
 1 Corinthians 6:16-20There's more to sex than mere skin on skin. Sex is as much spiritual mystery as physical fact. As written in Scripture, "The two become one." Since we want to become spiritually one with the Master, we must not pursue the kind of sex that avoids commitment and intimacy, leaving us more lonely than ever—the kind of sex that can never "become one." There is a sense in which sexual sins are different from all others. In sexual sin we violate the sacredness of our own bodies, these bodies that were made for God-given and God-modeled love, for "becoming one" with another. Or didn't you realize that your body is a sacred place, the place of the Holy Spirit? Don't you see that you can't live however you please, squandering what God paid such a high price for? The physical part of you is not some piece of property belonging to the spiritual part of you. God owns the whole works. So let people see God in and through your body.

"I don't know what to do with these feelings", "my hormones are out of control", "U JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND, I CAN'T FIGHT THIS FEELING!" Change your surroundings, get up & do something so your mind is not idle, the enemy can have a field day with an idle mind! We choose what we want to think about! We can not say 'the devil made me do it!' WE KNOW WHEN WE ARE ON SOMETHING!!! I know I do!!! But Wait, there is hope! TRAIN YOUR BRAIN!!! THINK ON WHAT IS PURE!

1 Corinthians 10:13 The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.

1Cor. 7: 1 Now, getting down to the questions you asked in your letter to me. First, Is it a good thing to have sexual relations? 2-6Certainly—but only within a certain context. It's good for a man to have a wife, and for a woman to have a husband. Sexual drives are strong, but marriage is strong enough to contain them and provide for a balanced and fulfilling sexual life in a world of sexual disorder. The marriage bed must be a place of mutuality—the husband seeking to satisfy his wife, the wife seeking to satisfy her husband. Marriage is not a place to "stand up for your rights." Marriage is a decision to serve the other, whether in bed or out. Abstaining from sex is permissible for a period of time if you both agree to it, and if it's for the purposes of prayer and fasting—but only for such times. Then come back together again. Satan has an ingenious way of tempting us when we least expect it. I'm not, understand, commanding these periods of abstinence—only providing my best counsel if you should choose them.

Any of these sound familiar? "Oh, but I love him & we just wanna express our love by taking it to a higher level!", "If she truly loves me & she'll want to give me all of her", "we'll be together forever so why wait, we can make it official now, who needs a piece of paper & rings?", "This is all I know, been doing it since I was young, this is how we supposed to show love!"...WHAT CAN MAKE A MAN HONOR THE LADY HE LOVES? WHAT CAN MAKE YOU DO RIGHT WHEN YOU WANT TO DO WRONG? LOVE

1Cor. 13 Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.   Love doesn't strut, Doesn't have a swelled head, Doesn't force itself on others, Isn't always "me first," Doesn't fly off the handle, Doesn't keep score of the sins of others, Doesn't revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end. Love never dies.

I'LL LEAVE YOU WITH THIS...DO NOT MARRY JUST TO HAVE SEX! CONTROL YOUR FLESH FIRST OR YOU'LL FIND THAT SPIRIT OF LUST PERVERTING OTHER AREAS OF YOUR LIFE! I AM NOT TELLING YOU SOMETHING I READ, I'M TELLING YOU WHAT I HAVE LIVED!!! WE OVERCAME THE ENEMY BY THE BLOOD THE LAMB & THE WORD OF OUR TESTIMONY! LORD HELP US ALL TODAY PLEASE JESUS!

LADIES, WHEN YOU'RE DATING...KNOW HOW TO POSITION YOURSELF & ALLOW HIM TO BE A GENTLEMAN. ACCEPT NOTHING LESS! IF HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO TREAT A LADY, TEACH HIM HOW TO TREAT YOU! DON'T SETTLE FOR LESS THAN GOD'S BEST FOR YOU! IF YOU ARE EVER IN DOUBT ABOUT WHAT YOU SHOULD OR SHOULD NOT DO, FIND A SCRIPTURE TO JUSTIFY IT BEFORE YOU DO IT! MY PASTOR, JOHN HANNAH, TEACHES US THAT WE SHOULD BE FRIENDS 1ST, THEN FELLOWSHIP SPIRITUALLY, THEN YOU CAN PURSUE RELATIONSHIP! IT IS WISE GODLY COUNSEL, I PRAY YOU TAKE HEED & SAVE YOURSELF SOME TIME & HEARTACHE!!! WAIT ON THE LORD, BE OF GOOD COURAGE! DON'T RUSH GOD, HE KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR US BELOVEDS! :-)

May God Bless You all!


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I apologize!

What have I done? Look at the mess I've made. I almost just forfeited the game! I can not possibly lose now. I've come too far!
Denial is dangerous!
If I admit what I feel to the whole wide world, without admitting it to myself first, it's still denial!
How many times do I need to pray & get confirmation after confirmation? What else needs to happen to make me see?
It's just a little bit of fear mixed with a lot of imagination! Stop looking at people for what you want them to be & accept them for who they are!
Pray with them, believe God on their behalf, encourage them, shower them with unconditional love!
Give back to them what they've poured all over you!
I was blind by my own over thinking before! But now I see clearly! God I surrender my all to You! Have Your way with me!
I apologize! Please forgive me! I can see now! Man, that was a close call! I almost ruined a great plan. Getting out of God's way now! He already knows & I am so glad that He does!
I apologize!


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PUTTING MYSELF ON BLAST (Again)!

(Hi everyone! I'm putting myself on blast, because I am led to testify as well as expose the enemy! I have seen it in my life many times, when I am transparent, I get more & more FREE! The enemy can not hold it over my head anymore! Let me tell you about some of it!
I've had a lot happen since my last post! I am doing a self examination & you wouldn't believe the stuff I've found out! I have NOT been living up to my full potential! I'm not where I used to be, but I'm not where I ought to be either! GOD WANTS TO WARP SPEED ME WHERE I SHOULD BE IF I QUIT WILLFULLY FALLING!!! I don't want to just go thru the motions anymore! I know I'm destined for greatness for God's glory! People need to see God's miracles, signs & wonders in today's times! God has helped me tremendously! I just want to live a life pleasing to Him at all times! I want Him to be glorified in every area of my life! I won't be perfect here on Earth, but I will strive for perfection til the day of Jesus Christ! How about you? God is teaching me how to live a healthy, Christian, balanced life!

You know what fam, during my soul searching, God pricked my heart about lust, when we ignore lust it will pervert itself & manifest in many ways! You'll find yourself a slave to it doing things you said you'd never do! Ask me how I know!!! (shaking my head at myself) I thought I was celibate, but I later learned that I was not "fully" celibate! So I took what I learned & started ALL OVER...I got rid of a few 'things' & prayed to God for help! I struggled! I don't have cable, but had to call my cell phone company & internet service provider to block certain abilities so I would not fall for the okedoke & 1 of my sisters who I confided in & who had been there, done that & she suggested some things. So, I wash my hands in cold water & anointed them with oil & STRETCHED MY HANDS IN SURRENDER TO GOD & I CRIED OUT TO GOD DECREEING & DECLARING THAT MY HANDS ARE MADE TO WORSHIP YOU LORD OF MY LIFE! I knew I still needed accountability, so I let Facebook & Twitter help me, since I was on it everyday anyway! My goals were realistic, doable, I learned in psych class that it takes 7 days to form a habit, but 21 days to break a habit! I set out to do 21 days of posting! I did not entertain men during this time & temptations were getting stronger! Really great, handsome men were coming out of the woodwork! But, know the enemy comes to kill, steal & destroy...he was trying to distract me & tempt me to self medicate, if you will. But, I pressed forward! (no pun intended-lol) I DID NOT WANT TO FAIL GOD NOR MYSELF! I DID NOT WANT MY SECRET WILLFUL SINS TO CRUCIFY MY JESUS AGAIN & AGAIN! I'd rather expose the enemy & be free from my own lusts! So, everyday I posted, Day 1-35...I could not stop after 21, it felt good (I owed God extra days) & each day, I typed how I was feeling-good, bad & the ugly, but always ended with something positive & to God be all the glory, I was able to do that in 140 characters or less via Twitter! IT WAS A MIRACLE! LOL...didn't know I could get my point across in so few words!!! LOL ~God showed me that I am stronger than I think & I CAN resist the enemy & he MUST flee whenever I do resist! I'm so Grateful!!!

I even began physical therapy for a knee injury, but the workouts has really help me not to be sedentary...we were not designed to just lie down & let life pass us by! I knew my body was deficient certain nutrients & vitamins so I went back to my Energizer shakes & plenty of water everyday...MY BODY THANKED ME! I felt so much more balanced & my energy shot thru the roof! So what the enemy meant for bad, God worked out for my good! So, to you I say, GET UP! GET OUT! MOVE AROUND! DANCE! DO SOMETHING!!! ;-)


I also noticed that my hobbies were seeming to be more than just something I enjoy doing...I am passionate about sharing Christ with others, I'm an official 100% bonafide (((HUGGER))), writing, singing, dancing, acting, modeling & photography & I always photo journal! A former co-worker gave me a Nikon D70 shell & said I could take it to the shop & buy a lens. He said he noticed how I always capture nature & certain moments with my cell phone camera. I let that camera sit for 2 years on my top shelf where I could see it everyday. I was so cluttered in my mind that I could not even see the blessing in that! GOD IS SO GOOD TO LET ME SEE MORE CLEARLY NOW! I am in prayer asking God what He'd like me to do with all of what I call gifts & talents He's blessed me with! I want Him to be glorified in these as well! So, I called a few schools, went to the library & got all types of digital photography books  & when I was not studying God's Word, I studied to hone my skills from the gifts God gave me. I sat & talked with a professional photographer for hours & learned about his equipment & asked if I could shadow him sometime & he said yes! He poured some golden nuggets into me, I pray God bless him for that!



My process had begun & then God allowed me to have many encounters with Him! I was hoarding "stuff" from my past...suppressed "stuff" as well as actual things cluttering my home, causing my mind to be cluttered. I BEGAN A JOURNEY OF GETTING RID OF THE OLD, TO MAKE ROOM FOR THE NEW...in every area of my life! Note to self: CLEAN UP! DON'T PROCRASTINATE LASHONDA, YOU'RE HOLDING YOUR OWN SELF BACK! STOP BEING LAZY! BE AN EXAMPLE FOR YOUR KIDS! DO NOT SAVE FACE! HUGE BREAKTHROUGHS ARE ON THE OTHERSIDE OF YOU GETTING YOUR HOUSE IN ORDER! PAY YOUR BILLS ON TIME! STOP BEING RAGGEDY! SHOW GOD HE CAN TRUST YOU! I thank God for the ministry I am connected to! I get the unadulterated Word of God in all TRUTH! I get constant confirmations there! So its hard to slack off, especially when i was convicted, not condemned, but convicted to not just lean on the microwave verses on all the social network sites & my cell phone...I mean, its gr8 to get it in daily, but I know how to study His Word to show myself approved, a workman that need not be ashamed & I SO MISSED THE TURNING OF THE THIN, CRISP PAGES & HIGHLIGHTING & UNDERLINING & USING MANY VERSIONS OF THE BIBLE TO GET EVEN BETTER UNDERSTANDING! I LOVE GOD FOR REMINDING ME OF THIS THRU MY PASTOR!
You all get to hold me accountable! I must check in periodically, giving an update of how I am doing! I even created a YouTube video about it, you should subscribe here as well as the video! When I began cleaning my bedroom that I had not slept in comfortably since my divorce, God confirmed that this thing was spiritual, not natural & with constant appearances of the numbers 1234, God was telling me to get it in ORDER! So I prayed, anointed my hands & bedroom with blessed oil & I began! I sat & looked at things, cried, released & donated some things to a worthy organization & I'm still not done, but thank God I started!!! Guess what, God even allowed me to be able to afford our women's church retreat & God confirmed EVERYTHING that I was doing already plus revealed Himself to me in a new way, just like I needed Him to do! I've been on this Christian journey 30 years & I won't turn back, however, I never want to get stale & redundant...just existing without plan or purpose! I begged Him to let me see Him in a new way! HE IS SO FAITHFUL & EVERYTHING WE NEED!!!
Begin your own journey today & give me feedback on how you're coming along...that would encourage me! We will not let life's busy work or laziness nor spiritual ruts keep us from moving forward & getting all that God has for us to get! I DECREE & DECLARE THAT WE SHALL BE HEALED~WHOLE~DELIVERED & FREE IN EVERY AREA OF OUR LIVES...SPIRITUALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, PHYSICALLY & FINANCIALLY!!! In Jesus' Precious Name, thank God~Amen! And IT IS SO!!! :-)
Thank you for your time.


Until next time...
Kingdom Blessings to you & yours :-)



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I'm Content!

I'm done making a mess of men, tired of getting to know new ones all over again.
Every time I befriend a guy, I wind up asking myself "why?"
I know I'm not perfect to say the least, but can't men & women start with friends only?


Either he falls head over heels like books jumpin' off a shelf OR he can't keep his hands to himself.
I finally learned what ever state I'm in, there with to be content. I prayed asking God what true love is & He led me to the 13 ch. of 1st Corinthians!

I'm willing to go through my process, in You is where my heart can rest.
Besides, my heart can't take much more, of wrong men knocking at it's door.
Guarding my heart as well as my mind, I'm not even looking~it's He who finds!

Now all of my time at church I can give, get out the house~laugh, love & live.
Being happy & enjoying life, so when my King comes he'll recognize his wife.
Processed, without my past hurting me, I'm Healed~Whole~Delivered & FREE! 

Shield & cover me Oh God, let my heart in You abide.
I will keep it hidden in Thee so my beloved must seek YOU to find me.
Help me to never settle for less, I only want~4 me~God's best!

\0/ Thank You Jesus! \0/


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I APOLOGIZE!

Lord, You have taught me right from wrong, but my temptations sometimes are oh so strong!
I don't want to sin against Thee, please don't take Your Holy Spirit from me!
When I rise & when I sleep, it is You on my mind as I smile & as I weep!
I love You with my whole heart, You've been there right from the start!

I apologize for my sins, please forgive me again & again!
You convict & not condemn, You're nothing like all of them!
Please help me to forgive myself so I can be in good spiritual health!
I receive Your Mercy & Your Grace, YOU ALWAYS PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE! :)

Thank You Lord! I'd be a hot mess without you! You make me look good as I represent You!  I love You with my entire being!!!



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I Taught You How...

Now that I think about it I can't be mad at you,
because I'm the one who taught you how to do me the way you do!

I look back on those days when I slacked off & dropped my guard,
I taught you how to do the same which for you wasn't very hard!

It was me who taught you how to keep messing over me in this jungle safari,
since I always let you back in time & time again after your millionth "I'm sorry"!

If I want God to forgive me, then I MUST forgive you,
but I don't want you to get off that easy & that's the honest to God's truth!

Between your hurtful past, troubled present & blank future, so much is hurting you, 
All I ever tried to do is help, but seem like you want me to hurt too!

I won't let you drag me down, Grace & Mercy is applied,
I lay you at the feet of Jesus, for reasons like this He Died!

Lord knows I know life & death are in the power of our words,
But, things that you have said to me are words I've NEVER heard!

Maybe I'm reaping what I've sown from past verbal fights,
consequences don't go unpaid once they are exposed by God's Light!

If I knew I had inner demons to conquer, I would NOT purposely involve myself with you,
I'd rather walk away, get the help I need & try again once I'm improved & new!

I owe you nothing, stop acting as if my love for God excuses you from all,
Do you have any idea how the impact your negativity has made  me fall?

But, I taught you how to treat me by accepting mediocre behavior,
when the God I serve says strive for perfection until the day of my risen Savior!

I taught you how to treat me without commanding the respect I'm due,
I used words only, but now my actions say "I'M THROUGH"!

I forgive you because I have to & I forgive myself too,
But, I pray YOU never forget, don't get it twisted, yeah, I said YOU!

I taught you how to treat me, now I'm putting you back in school,
Don't think this will come easy, RESPECT & LOVE are my #1 rules!

Get yourself together first, then bring it to the table,
Everything will work out for my good, I KNOW my God is able!

I taught you how to treat me, but I'm unlike any other girl...
God, helped me collect my pieces from all around this world!





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VALIDATION

 

My oldest son bought a cell w/his b-day money & he is with his dad this weekend. He text me, while I was driving from far away coming from a call back audition that lasted 10 minutes, if that! I was not feeling all that great about my performance & his text said "Hi just wanted to say I love you!" Little did he know I was feeling mighty low cuz I believe I cud have done better, I thanked him & told him that it was perfect timing & felt like a (BIG HUG)! He asked what was wrong & I told him, he said, "GOD DIDN"T BRING U THIS FAR 2 LEAVE U!" *tears* sniff, sniff THANK U GOD 4 COMPASSIONATE, THOUGHTFUL & LOVING CHILDREN! I LOVE U!

All the years of love, support, compassion & giving my children all of me is paying off in more ways than one! It’s like I'm reaping what I've sown! My oldest daughter kept me focused the night b4 auditions...she bid me God Speed & prayed 4 my attention span 2 last long & 4 me not 2 be sleepy or distracted! That morning she read along silently & listened to me do my final run thru & she said I had it word for word & she applauded! She literally clapped & smiled! Her face said she was impressed & proud! She asked, “you stayed up all night ma?” She was at the library performing while I was at my audition, we were texting each other encouragement!  I wanted to text her that I BOMBED, but I told her I was nervous, had to start over, but did it for the most part. But, my spirit got low & I felt defeated even though I did very well for learning the monologue in one day! I did not feel as confident as at home, because people who had gone to school for acting was also auditioning & the director herself was in there so the pressure was thick! My daughter text me after the audition, “Aw, I hope everything works out cuz U deserve it”! These kids got my eyes so full of tears! :) WHAT A BLESSING! THANK YOU LORD! She said, I forgot a line to my new piece I wrote, but I kept going & everyone was so supportive & encouraging saying she did great & her words were great & that there is no way they would have been able to keep going! She even got a card from one of the listeners who offered to help in any way or to be a mentor! We looked at each other & said “WE KEPT GOING”! GOD U ARE SO AMAZINGLY WONDERFUL! WE WENT SKATING WITH OUR BRAND NEW SKATES THAT I BOUGHT FOR LITTLE OR NOTHING THE DAY BEFORE! IT WAS A PERFECT DAY WITH HER! It was weird not driving her & being at the library to watch her perform an original piece, but she encouraged me to go to my call back & I felt torn, but it’s time to do some things for me now that they are older. My sacrifices of putting me on the back burner until they got older are paying off!

Well, I can't tell about 1 or 2 & not the others, lol! My youngest daughter has been cheering me on since I began pursuing my dream! She text me "YOU WERE CUT OUT FOR THIS MA, YOU'RE GOOD AT IT, ITS WHAT YOU DO ON A DAILY BASIS! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! JUST WANTED TO GIVE BACK TO U ALL THAT U GIVE TO ME, I LOVE YOU" I was bubbling over inside! WOW! **tears** She hugs me all the time & thanks me for believing in her & for loving her & for listening to her & for taking care of her…WOW, you never know how someone is watching everything you do & say & how you are affecting or impacting their lives! She plays basketball & I usually never miss a game, but since I have been pursuing my dreams, I have had to miss a few, I know she misses her #1 fan, but she supports me just like I support her! She says she understands & that its ok! TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!

My baby boy is not a baby anymore! He doesn't have a phone to text, yet, but he always hugs me at the most perfect times! I don't know if he needs it or if he knows that I need it, either way, God knows & HIS timing is perfect! Zeke prays for me out loud, all the time, about everything (just like I do for them) & I see his eyes & his face...he is so sincere & he truly expects & believes that God can & God will do just what he is asking, (just like me), gotta have that pure motive, childlike faith! I cherish all of these moments! We all talk individually & together & it’s never a dull moment! We laugh, we cry, we vent, we bicker, we share, we play, we love & we do it all TOGETHER! I like my quiet times, but I LOVE TOGETHER! Thank You Lord 4 my family! I love them all & I LOVE me some YOU! You have used Your Word & my family to validate me & to wrap your loving arms around me during this time where my mind wants my emotions to cave in & give up, but You have taught me that DEFEAT IS NOT AN OPTION! I WAS CUT OUT FOR THIS LIFE & ALL THAT IT MAY BRING! THANK YOU FOR REJECTION AS WELL AS ACCEPTANCE! THANK YOU FOR CLOSING DOORS AS WELL AS FOR OPENING WINDOWS & DOORS OF OPPORTUNITIES & ENOUGH BLESSINGS I WON’T EVEN HAVE ROOM TO RECEIVE! THANK YOU FOR RESTORING MY DREAMS & VISIONS AS WELL AS FOR PROVISIONS! THANK YOU FOR BUILDING MY CONFIDENCE, I BOAST IN YOU ABOUT YOUR GREATNESS! THANK YOU FOR ALL THE DIVINE CONNECTIONS AS WELL AS FOR ALL MY HATERS…KEEP HATING, YOU’RE ONLY SETTING ME UP FOR MORE BLESSINGS!!! THANK YOU LORD FOR TWO GREAT CHURCHES WHERE I GET A DOUBLE DIPPING DOSE OF YOU! MY FEELINGS ARE TEMPORAL & SUBJECT TO CHANGE SO I CAN NOT GO OFF OF WHAT I FEEL! I HAVE TO OPERATE IN WHAT I KNOW TO BE THE FACTS & THE FACT REMAINS TO BE THAT YOU LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY & YOUR PLANS FOR ME ARE GOOD & NOT EVIL! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LORD! ALL YOUR PROMISES ARE YES & AMEN! YOU’RE DA BOMBDIGITY!!! THANK YOU FOR BEING THE LIFTER OF MY HEAD! YOU HAVE MADE ME GLAD & TAUGHT ME HOW TO ENCOURAGE MYSELF IN YOU LORD! WOW! YOU NEVER CEASE TO AMAZE ME!!! I’M GOING TO WORSHIP YOU COLLECTIVELY WITH MY BROTHERS & SISTERS IN CHRIST NOW! THEN I AM GOING TO EAT SUNDAY DINNER WITH MY MOM, SIBLINGS, NIECES & NEPHEWS & MY CHILDREN AT HEADQUARTERS, LIKE WE USED TO DO AT BIGMA & PAW PAW’S HOUSE! THOSE WERE THE DAYS! IT’S ALREADY LOOKING BETTER LORD! THANK YOU THAT I ALREADY FEEL BETTER!!! I AM EXPECTING EVEN GREATER THINGS TODAY! I’M EXPECTING MIRACLES THAT ONLY YOU CAN PERFORM! SEE LORD, YOU MAKE ME SO PASSIONATE ABOUT THE CAUSE OF CHRIST!!! THANK YOU FOR BEING VERY MUCH ALIVE IN ME! I KNOW I COULD NEVER NOR WOULD I LIKE TO TRY TO MAKE IT WITHOUT YOU! YOU ARE MY ABSOLUTE EVERYTHING!!! THANK YOU!



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