Thursday, March 14, 2013

Times of Covenant

Sleeping? Dreaming? What's the deal? What happened to society? Could this be real? She remembers being loved & cared for. Some would say a spoiled rotten little girl. From that time to this one, something happened to her world. Growing, experimenting, practicing her dos & don'ts. Easily meeting people who tested her wills & her won'ts. Able to roam freely, no permission needed. Circumstances has her wishing those dos & don'ts she'd heeded. Trouble brewing, danger & heartache ahead. If only she had remembered to be spirit led. Thinking with her flesh instead of her heart has caused her many problems, where should I even start? One minute she had tons of associates & even more friends. All the sudden that came to an end. Confused about what was taking place she fell to her knees in prayer. Dear God, why are You doing this, don't You even care? How can I go from being the life of the party, happy & care free. To having no one & being lonely? One day, she looked around & all those people were gone. She went to all her old hangouts, but the crowd was all wrong! Times were different. She tried to adapt, but everyone looked at her strange. She felt like an outsider looking in. Clothes were different, even the music changed. She searched for love in all the wrong places & all the wrong faces & found lust instead. Life as she knew it just wasn't the same. Every night she woke up in a different bed. Empty, weak & warn she cried out to God again. He received her with open arms & forgave her of all her sins. He covered her & protected her from all past hurt & harm. He restored her broken pieces & held her in His arms. He was her shield from all that was old. He replaced her tarnished silver with the shiniest gold. He made her His bride, times of old became new. He became her Husband once she said I DO! 14 MAR 2013 1946HRS END. SALVATION... Please Don't Leave Earth Without It!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Inside Out

What's inside of us will eventually work it's way out in some shape, form or fashion. Not everyone with a nasty attitude desires to be that way. The same rings true for persons with a beautiful smile & lovely spirit, most likely they weren't always that way. What is your personality? What is said about you amongst your peers? What do you think of you? I asked these questions of myself & I waited a while to answer. I concluded that I have a contagious smile, an effervescent personality, always encouraging & complimenting others, but I also know that there were times when I just didn't want to be bothered. I found myself getting easily agitated, impatient with others & I was being annoyingly critical of everyone & everything, especially of myself! How did I get so selfish & spoiled? I did not like the latter characteristics about myself so I took time out to delve in & do some soul searching. Boy, am I glad I did! How did I begin? Glad you asked! I went to God in prayer & I talked to Him just as I am typing to you now. Here's an inside look of what transpired between He & I: "Hi Daddy, it's me again. Daddy, I thank You for creating me & being meticulous when doing so! You do all things well & You don't make no junk! So, Daddy, that's why I come to you as humble as I know how to admit that some where down the line I allowed some junk inside of my thoughts, my lifestyle, my home & it has manifested some ugly parts of me that I know You do not approve of. Show me inside of me Daddy...what are people seeing? Am I a reflection of You? I want to take after You Daddy! I want to favor You when people look at me! In order for this to happen, I need You to perform that surgery that only You can do...You know, the kind that doesn't leave scars & side affects! I need Your help to be the best me that You created me to be Daddy! So, I surrender all of my desires to You & ask that You would please let them line up with Your perfect will for this life You've blessed me with! I only want YOU! Having YOU means I have EVERYTHING! Let me be content in whatever state I am in at any given moment Daddy! I want to help others get to YOU! Help me to share You Daddy! I want to be used by You...I yield my hands, my feet, my eyes, my ears, my mind, my heart & my soul to YOU to do with what You will! Use me Daddy, I want to make You proud! I want to please YOU more than my fleshly desires! Many are in need of You & all that You have to offer! Please help me to be a usable vessel...make me over Lord! Make me brand spankin' new so that my life will glorify YOU! In Your precious name I ask Jesus, Thank You Daddy~Amen." Our Father so lovingly heard me & He did not hesitate to answer me! Everything that could go wrong, did! But He used it all to perfect those things concerning me that I went to Him about! When we ask for help, He allows things to happen that will let us practice until it becomes second nature! I believe it's a life long process! As long as we are on this Earth, we are on The Potter's Wheel...we are His clay! I desire to be molded by The Master Craftsman! He makes all things NEW! I can honestly say that I love to love! I am in love even with the idea of being in love! I want to give, hug, share, smile, encourage, assist, and the characteristic I love most...the best change of all is HE is using Holy Spirit to the fullest concerning wisdom & me letting her have her perfect work in me! I still get those annoying critical thoughts, but glory be to God, wisdom makes me keep my mouth shut! That's huge for me! It's a miracle!!! I can see the change! I can feel the change! I'm not perfected in it, yet, but I see progress & I find myself driving & not yelling at cars! I smile & let people in now! Road rage was one of my biggest problems! I've learned that even though the feelings will arise & I may be tempted to act on them, I don't have to! The sun still rises when I hold my tongue! Can you imagine how FREE I feel? It is amazing! Smiling right now, because of what my Daddy done did for me! And yes, I said 'done did'! :) I hope this inside look of ugly has inspired you to talk to Daddy about everything concerning you. He really does care & He is THE ONLY ONE who can lead us in the right direction to for change! God bless you & yours! Keep praying, He's listening, ready to answer! Love you! SALVATION... Please Don't Leave Earth Without It!

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

HAPPY NEW YEAR! "2013"

Hello beautiful people! How is everyone? I pray this entry finds you all in good health & uplifted spirits! WOW! It is a brand spankin' new year! I'm so excited about moving forward! Last I reached out to you all, I was shutting it down to have some much needed "me" time! I did lots of soul searching & guess what? SOME OF THE UGLIEST STUFF CAME UP & OUT DURING THIS TIME! I laugh, but I am so serious! I found out quite a bit about myself! People/things I like, people/things I dislike, People/things I love & people/things I...well, I try not to hate anyone but the devil! Real talk! I'm just checking in & smiling & taking some deep breaths! Stretching my hands toward the heavens, singing & living life to the full! GOD IS SO GOOD! I've been dealing with "me" & I like the progress that is being made! I dislike the downfalls, but they seem to be necessary in order for me to triumph! Weird huh? Well, I'm happy to say that I am back on the right track! I was warped for a minute, but my heart is clear & my mind is made up...NOTHING & NO ONE SHALL STOP ME FROM WALKING IN LOVE...that is to say walking in God! GOD IS LOVE! \0/ I almost made the worst mistake of my life & I am so grateful to God for giving me options! He gives us freedom to choose! For a very short while, I was convinced that I wanted to choose the wrong thing, BUT GOD's love & constant support allowed me to see the error of my ways! I remembered the damage caused before when I took matters into my own hands & I DID NOT want a repeat of that! I read in my Psych course material that it takes 7 days to form a bad habit & 21 days to break that bad habit! Let's just say I'm working on day 43! I ain't taking no chances!!! You feel me? Lol Whom The Son sets FREE is FREE INDEED! I CHOOSE TO STAY FREE! I AM WALKING IN MY FREEDOM! I AM LIVING IN MY FREEDOM! \0/ NOTHING & NO ONE IS WORTH MY FREEDOM! GOD PAID, JESUS PAID & EVEN I HAVE PAID A HIGH PRICE FOR MY FREEDOM! I think about my love for God & God's love for me & my love for myself that has grown tremendously & I shake my head & say NO WAY! IT AIN'T WORTH IT! Even when it comes to tempt me, I do not entertain it! I'M DONE! I'M FREE! FREE FROM ME!!!!!!! \0/ Anyone who has ever been addicted to anything or anyone will be able to understand & appreciate this piece! God bless & keep you all! *Smile! God STILL loves you!* SALVATION... Please Don't Leave Earth Without It!

Thursday, November 1, 2012

A Look Inside...

Hello World! It's been a while since my last entry...I've been a busy little bee, but I'm taking the last quarter of this year to delve into myself! Not in a manner of being selfish, rather just taking time to get myself together. There are many distractions all around & I allowed one in & got consumed by it! Social Media! I noticed I was using it for ministry, as an outlet, but more shocking I recently discovered that I was hiding behind it! I'm a pretty transparent person to all of the world, but when it came to being transparent to myself I closed my eyes! Until October 1, 2012...that's when I opened my eyes & faced me! Now one month later I can honestly say that I saw a few things in myself that were not pretty nor pleasant. I asked God to gut me out & show me ME, but I don't think I was prepared to see all that I am seeing, but I'm glad I can see it, acknowledge it & work on growing thru my transition in the most positive way possible. I can honestly say that I've experienced denial, admittance, acceptance, anger, tears & smiles in the last month. I currently feel like I'm in therapy-I journal daily & there is healing in just being real! If we can't be real with ourselves then we can't be real with anyone! Honesty really is the best policy! The 1st week of not posting anything, it was a bit scary. I was so used to grabbing my laptop or cell phone to post my every thought. Although I felt led to share a lot & many would comment on how encouraged they were after reading what I'd shared, I still needed a break. We can pour out into others until we're depleted! But, just like a bank, if you never make any deposits, you'll never be able to make a withdrawal! I was on E for empty! All that is dandy, I was totally willing - my intentions were good & my motives were pure, but even though I was transparent & honest, I was still hiding behind it, I think. Whenever we write or say something, there's always something we choose to leave out. Maybe even subconsciously! Since I've not posted anything, I could immediately tell the difference! My mind clutter was quieted! I felt anxiety because I felt I was letting my readers down, but I felt an overwhelming sense of peace within myself as well. The best examination is a self examination & I shall continue my self exam! I highly recommend it to everyone! Although it may be scary, it's the best gift I could've given myself at this time in my life! It's not just for me, it's for all those in my circle & for all those whom I'll meet in the future! I really feel like I'm discovering my best self! Breathing deeply & smiling... Take care & be well. May God continue to bless you all richly! :) SALVATION... Please Don't Leave Earth Without It!

Friday, March 16, 2012

OVERWHELMED???

Stress can kill anyone! It affects everyone! Babies, youth, young adults, adults, EVERYONE, every class, every location, every nationality!
Ignoring or hiding from the problem won't help, I know because I've tried! Outside distractions don't make it go away either...when I get behind on things laughing, vacationing & playing is only temporary & my problems are still there! BREAKS ARE IMPORTANT, but for me, I'd enjoy it much better knowing that I'm working to resolve the issues at hand rather than feeling like I'm running from them!
I notice how stress & tension knots dissolve once I take care of MY business! But even knowing HOW to get to that point is a challenge at times! But, I'VE GOTTA FACE IT! I MUST DEAL WITH IT & truth be told, some things I get myself into by being lazy or trifling~I don't believe in saving face~ & other things God allows to happen for His purposes & my greater good. Either way, I call them all teachable moments! God is so Faithful, so Sovereign & I'm grateful that even though I deserve to suffer from my consequences, He grants me grace & mercy & helps me endure those consequences that I've brought on myself! I don't know any person who would do that...we as a people would be so quick to say "uh huh, that's what you get~serves you right!" Well, let me just talk about me, I'm not proud of it, but in the past I've said that before! Hmph! How many know we reap just what we sow?

So, what can one do to rid their lives of this stress? Glad you asked! Some people turn to alcohol, drugs, sex, food, excessive people, shopping, hoarding things & some become mean, a workaholic, a recluse, or even a work out animal, others just rebel & shut down...it can be quite depressing! You're not in this alone! I don't judge how anyone chooses to deal with their stress, but here's what I do now:

1) I pray & ask God to help me in each area, no matter how small or huge it seems, I still need help knowing how to maneuver effectively! Whether its making calls, arrangements, payments, scheduling appointments. Whatever the case may be, I ask for His guidance & take a whole bunch of deep breaths...slowly in thru the nose & blow it out slowly thru the mouth!

2) I journal...A LOT! (write the vision & make it plain) Helps to actually see what I'm dealing with & PRIORITIZE things because I don't want to bite off more than I can chew & get even more overwhelmed! (kinda defeats the purpose) I HANDLE 1 THING AT A TIME! Also, sometimes I keep quiet to meditate & other times I confide in a confidant, getting it out does wonders for me!

3) I do what Holy Spirit leads me to do! God hears & He answers! I'm being led, shown, helped & next thing you know that big ol' huge problem is not so intimidating anymore! Works for me!!!

This is NOT something I read, I'M LIVING IT!!! THANK YOU LORD FOR ALWAYS HELPING ME...EVEN WHEN I SCREW UP BIG TIME, YOU FORGIVE ME & HELP ME FORGIVE MYSELF!!! I WOULD NEVER MAKE IT WITHOUT YOUR HELP!!!



SALVATION... Please Don't Leave Earth Without It!

Friday, December 2, 2011

I'M WORTH THE WAIT & SO ARE YOU!

I AM WORTH THE WAIT & SO ARE YOU! What about Starting over? SAVED, SINGLE & CELIBATE AFTER DIVORCE! ABSTINENCE IS NOT JUST FOR TEENS YA KNOW! 

Take me for instance: I had a license to drive (marriage certificate), but then my license got revoked (husband left then divorced me). My car still wants to 'drive'! But, I can't lawfully drive without license, registration & insurance! If not, I may have to pay dearly in fines, have an accident & be hurt or killed, plus, I NEED GAS!!! 'GAS' will cost ya big! DRIVING IS EXPENSIVE! IT'S BETTER TO GET YOUR LICENSE, REGISTRATION, INSURANCE & YOUR OWN SET OF KEYS TO DRIVE YOUR OWN CAR! Hope you are able to follow my analogy! 


Maybe you’ve already given your virginity away and it’s impossible for you to be a virgin on your wedding night. Don’t trip… there’s hope for you, too. Just because you’ve done it before doesn’t mean you have to keep on doing it! Divorce that soul & emotional tie!
Starting over is the best choice for your life now. Starting over means that you've decided to stop having sex. That doesn’t mean forever; you’ll get your chance. But wait until it’s right, until it’s safe, until you're MARRIED. That's the best guilt free sex there is!!!

Think about it:
Wouldn’t it be wonderful not to have to worry about pregnancy, disease, or heartbreak from being used? Spiritual soul ties & being cursed? And think about all the fun you can have when you’re not worried. You’re free to see people without all the confusion that sex adds to a relationship. Holiness is attractive! Your anointing makes you special! Your self-respect and confidence will be attractive to the kind of person you really want to be with … not just someone who wants your “parts.”

Think about it: Starting over. The healthiest lifestyle you can choose. YES, THE CHOICE IS YOURS!!!
 
Want to talk about it?
Inbox me. Email me. We can help each other!

Remember:
  • YOU ARE… smart and capable of making great choices. Don’t believe anyone who says you can’t exercise self-control over your own body. YOU CAN CONTROL YOURSELF!
  • YOU ARE… special and valuable for lots of reasons. Don’t fall for the line that says you’re only worth something if you have sex. Grown folk pull this just as much as youth!
  • YOU ARE… worthy of respect. Don’t give in to the idea that just because you’ve done it before, you have to keep doing it. YOU DON'T!
  • YOU ARE… Worth the Wait! IT'S GREAT TO WAIT! TRUE LOVE MAKES YOU WANT TO WAIT!
Note: Some people may try to convince you that “Everyone’s doing it.” Don’t fall for that line of crap. Plenty of teens are saying “YES!” to abstinence & SO ARE ADULTS! “Yes!” to a life free from worry. “Yes!” to healthier relationships. “Yes!” to a brighter future. SAY "YES" TO GOD!!!

Step on up and take the abstinence challenge!
Whether you are still a virgin or not. Nobody ever died from not having sex, so you have nothing to lose!

Figure out why. Maybe you don’t want to deal with a pregnancy. Maybe you don’t want a disease. Or maybe you don’t want to set yourself up for emotional pain. Maybe you just want God to be pleased even with your sexuality! Write it down! Keep a journal, it helps!

Don’t fall for the lines. Only losers use ’em, and they are NOT thinking about YOUR needs.

Tell your partner. If you’ve been sexually active, tell your partner that you’ve changed your mind, and want to wait. If your boy/girlfriend won’t agree, kick ’em to the curb! You don’t need to be held hostage to someone else’s selfishness. If you’re currently abstinent, make sure all your dates know ahead of time that you’re committed to waiting.

Find somebody to watch your back. You don’t have to tell everyone you know, but find at least one other person who will support your decision to wait. I use social media sites to hold me accountable! And 2 of my bestest friends in the whole wide world!

Avoid risky situations. Know yourself and what might cause you problems. BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF! Know your triggers! Avoid the situation and you’ll avoid blowing it!

Keep your body clean. Avoid alcohol and drugs. Any decision you make now is out the window when you're loaded.

Keep your mind clean. Ditch the pornography. Call your internet provider & tell them to block it, that way even when you're tempted, you won't be able to indulge! Porn keeps you way too hyped on sex, and it’s demeaning to us all.

Make a plan! While you’re still dressed and thinking clearly, figure out how to get through each situation without having sex. Give yourself permission to have fun without sexual involvement. IT CAN BE DONE!!!

I RESPECT ME ENOUGH TO WAIT, WHICH COMMANDS RESPECT FROM OTHERS! IT'S MY CHOICE & I CHOOSE TO BEGIN AGAIN & ALLOW GOD TO TEACH ME HOW TO STAY KEPT BY HIM! :-) GOD EVEN TAUGHT ME HOW TO LOVE A MAN WITHOUT USING MY BODY! I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT WAS POSSIBLE, UNTIL NOW! IT'S A PROCESS...MY JOURNEY SHALL BE SUCCESSFUL!!! I PRAY THE SAME FOR YOU!!! :-)

Scripture References:
 1 Corinthians 6:16-20There's more to sex than mere skin on skin. Sex is as much spiritual mystery as physical fact. As written in Scripture, "The two become one." Since we want to become spiritually one with the Master, we must not pursue the kind of sex that avoids commitment and intimacy, leaving us more lonely than ever—the kind of sex that can never "become one." There is a sense in which sexual sins are different from all others. In sexual sin we violate the sacredness of our own bodies, these bodies that were made for God-given and God-modeled love, for "becoming one" with another. Or didn't you realize that your body is a sacred place, the place of the Holy Spirit? Don't you see that you can't live however you please, squandering what God paid such a high price for? The physical part of you is not some piece of property belonging to the spiritual part of you. God owns the whole works. So let people see God in and through your body.

"I don't know what to do with these feelings", "my hormones are out of control", "U JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND, I CAN'T FIGHT THIS FEELING!" Change your surroundings, get up & do something so your mind is not idle, the enemy can have a field day with an idle mind! We choose what we want to think about! We can not say 'the devil made me do it!' WE KNOW WHEN WE ARE ON SOMETHING!!! I know I do!!! But Wait, there is hope! TRAIN YOUR BRAIN!!! THINK ON WHAT IS PURE!

1 Corinthians 10:13 The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.

1Cor. 7: 1 Now, getting down to the questions you asked in your letter to me. First, Is it a good thing to have sexual relations? 2-6Certainly—but only within a certain context. It's good for a man to have a wife, and for a woman to have a husband. Sexual drives are strong, but marriage is strong enough to contain them and provide for a balanced and fulfilling sexual life in a world of sexual disorder. The marriage bed must be a place of mutuality—the husband seeking to satisfy his wife, the wife seeking to satisfy her husband. Marriage is not a place to "stand up for your rights." Marriage is a decision to serve the other, whether in bed or out. Abstaining from sex is permissible for a period of time if you both agree to it, and if it's for the purposes of prayer and fasting—but only for such times. Then come back together again. Satan has an ingenious way of tempting us when we least expect it. I'm not, understand, commanding these periods of abstinence—only providing my best counsel if you should choose them.

Any of these sound familiar? "Oh, but I love him & we just wanna express our love by taking it to a higher level!", "If she truly loves me & she'll want to give me all of her", "we'll be together forever so why wait, we can make it official now, who needs a piece of paper & rings?", "This is all I know, been doing it since I was young, this is how we supposed to show love!"...WHAT CAN MAKE A MAN HONOR THE LADY HE LOVES? WHAT CAN MAKE YOU DO RIGHT WHEN YOU WANT TO DO WRONG? LOVE

1Cor. 13 Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.   Love doesn't strut, Doesn't have a swelled head, Doesn't force itself on others, Isn't always "me first," Doesn't fly off the handle, Doesn't keep score of the sins of others, Doesn't revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end. Love never dies.

I'LL LEAVE YOU WITH THIS...DO NOT MARRY JUST TO HAVE SEX! CONTROL YOUR FLESH FIRST OR YOU'LL FIND THAT SPIRIT OF LUST PERVERTING OTHER AREAS OF YOUR LIFE! I AM NOT TELLING YOU SOMETHING I READ, I'M TELLING YOU WHAT I HAVE LIVED!!! WE OVERCAME THE ENEMY BY THE BLOOD THE LAMB & THE WORD OF OUR TESTIMONY! LORD HELP US ALL TODAY PLEASE JESUS!

LADIES, WHEN YOU'RE DATING...KNOW HOW TO POSITION YOURSELF & ALLOW HIM TO BE A GENTLEMAN. ACCEPT NOTHING LESS! IF HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO TREAT A LADY, TEACH HIM HOW TO TREAT YOU! DON'T SETTLE FOR LESS THAN GOD'S BEST FOR YOU! IF YOU ARE EVER IN DOUBT ABOUT WHAT YOU SHOULD OR SHOULD NOT DO, FIND A SCRIPTURE TO JUSTIFY IT BEFORE YOU DO IT! MY PASTOR, JOHN HANNAH, TEACHES US THAT WE SHOULD BE FRIENDS 1ST, THEN FELLOWSHIP SPIRITUALLY, THEN YOU CAN PURSUE RELATIONSHIP! IT IS WISE GODLY COUNSEL, I PRAY YOU TAKE HEED & SAVE YOURSELF SOME TIME & HEARTACHE!!! WAIT ON THE LORD, BE OF GOOD COURAGE! DON'T RUSH GOD, HE KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR US BELOVEDS! :-)

May God Bless You all!


SALVATION... Please Don't Leave Earth Without It!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

I apologize!

What have I done? Look at the mess I've made. I almost just forfeited the game! I can not possibly lose now. I've come too far!
Denial is dangerous!
If I admit what I feel to the whole wide world, without admitting it to myself first, it's still denial!
How many times do I need to pray & get confirmation after confirmation? What else needs to happen to make me see?
It's just a little bit of fear mixed with a lot of imagination! Stop looking at people for what you want them to be & accept them for who they are!
Pray with them, believe God on their behalf, encourage them, shower them with unconditional love!
Give back to them what they've poured all over you!
I was blind by my own over thinking before! But now I see clearly! God I surrender my all to You! Have Your way with me!
I apologize! Please forgive me! I can see now! Man, that was a close call! I almost ruined a great plan. Getting out of God's way now! He already knows & I am so glad that He does!
I apologize!


SALVATION... Please Don't Leave Earth Without It!